www.my(love/hate)space.com

Before my Milwaukee Sister had urged me to create a MySpace profile I had always thought the whole concept was a little ridiculous. Once I gave into the peer pressure though I began to enjoy the whole myspace experience....for a little while. Then one day during one of my dramatic moments I attempted to delete my entire profile. You see, in today's world and its love affair with the internet, one feels compelled to have and maintain an online persona. How we manifest this persona can vary. Some people use myspace, others use facebook or blogs (like this one), or online forums, etc. I belong to several online forums. Some are educational while others are for pure entertainment. The online persona I have created on those forums has been purely accidental. I never inteneded to become a member of an online community but my frequent usage made it inevitable. I was fortunate to meet some really great people online, so I am not really complaining. As for this blog, I originally started it as a way to anonymously post my random thoughts and everyday activities. It was a great way for some of my friends who do not live in Chicago to keep up with me. However I soon realized by telling all of my friends (including the ones in Chicago) about my blog that I was no longer posting "anonymously". There have been many things I really wanted to write about to get some unbiased opinions but could not do this simply because I didn't feel comfortable having EVERYONE know EVERYTHING about me. There are just some things Friend #2 or Friend #7 don't need to know. Or, sometimes I just have a random thought or idea that realyl has nothing to do with anything currently going on in my life, yet I would have to explain myself constantly afterwards to friends who inquired "what was that all about?". So what I thought would be a great format to express myself without any inhibitions actually turned out to be very censored. I have recently contemplated deleting my blog, however, as with the online forum I have had the opportunity to meet new people via my blog. I think I would miss that. So the blog stays...for now at least :)

Oh yeah, so where was I going with all of this rambling......ah yes, online personas. Anyhoo, so I became disgusted with my Myspace profile simply because I felt like it was the same shit just a different pile. My online persona had quickly evolved into a very uninteresting, one dimensional and, most importantly, a very poor representation of the persona that matters the most: my real life one. I think far too often I don't let people get a glimpse of me beyond the usual ramblings of Dannii Minogue, Taco Bell or Mario Lopez. I guess that has always been partially due to the fact I don't think anyone would be interested in hearing about any of the more serious things I concern myself with. However, I have decided instead of being a drama queen with a deleted Myspace profile, I am going to use this to my advantage.

I am currently revamping my MySpace profile to satisfy myself in a way I have never done before online. Perhaps it won't be cheesy, campy or even remotely funny like before, but that's ok!