Monday, December 04, 2006

Before my Milwaukee Sister had urged me to create a MySpace profile I had always thought the whole concept was a little ridiculous. Once I gave into the peer pressure though I began to enjoy the whole myspace experience....for a little while. Then one day during one of my dramatic moments I attempted to delete my entire profile. You see, in today's world and its love affair with the internet, one feels compelled to have and maintain an online persona. How we manifest this persona can vary. Some people use myspace, others use facebook or blogs (like this one), or online forums, etc. I belong to several online forums. Some are educational while others are for pure entertainment. The online persona I have created on those forums has been purely accidental. I never inteneded to become a member of an online community but my frequent usage made it inevitable. I was fortunate to meet some really great people online, so I am not really complaining. As for this blog, I originally started it as a way to anonymously post my random thoughts and everyday activities. It was a great way for some of my friends who do not live in Chicago to keep up with me. However I soon realized by telling all of my friends (including the ones in Chicago) about my blog that I was no longer posting "anonymously". There have been many things I really wanted to write about to get some unbiased opinions but could not do this simply because I didn't feel comfortable having EVERYONE know EVERYTHING about me. There are just some things Friend #2 or Friend #7 don't need to know. Or, sometimes I just have a random thought or idea that realyl has nothing to do with anything currently going on in my life, yet I would have to explain myself constantly afterwards to friends who inquired "what was that all about?". So what I thought would be a great format to express myself without any inhibitions actually turned out to be very censored. I have recently contemplated deleting my blog, however, as with the online forum I have had the opportunity to meet new people via my blog. I think I would miss that. So the blog stays...for now at least :)

Oh yeah, so where was I going with all of this rambling......ah yes, online personas. Anyhoo, so I became disgusted with my Myspace profile simply because I felt like it was the same shit just a different pile. My online persona had quickly evolved into a very uninteresting, one dimensional and, most importantly, a very poor representation of the persona that matters the most: my real life one. I think far too often I don't let people get a glimpse of me beyond the usual ramblings of Dannii Minogue, Taco Bell or Mario Lopez. I guess that has always been partially due to the fact I don't think anyone would be interested in hearing about any of the more serious things I concern myself with. However, I have decided instead of being a drama queen with a deleted Myspace profile, I am going to use this to my advantage.

I am currently revamping my MySpace profile to satisfy myself in a way I have never done before online. Perhaps it won't be cheesy, campy or even remotely funny like before, but that's ok!


Anonymous Anonymous said...

In this modern world, it is definitely challenging to remain anonymous; even when we place ourselves behind the wall of a computer screen. Unfortunately, your online space invasion was invetable. You have nosy friends, including me. It also makes it easy to misunderstand, misinterpret, or over analyze comments or messages that one never forsaw as being viewed differently. For anything that I have said, done, or posted that has contributed to your need to provide censorship, or simply made you unhappy or offended - I offer my apologies. Good luck with the myspace page! Dance like no one is watching and webpage design like no one is viewing through their monitors!

6:58 PM  
Blogger Chicago_Sexbox said...

Thank you for your kind words anonymous friend :)

7:47 PM  
Blogger MatadorMexicano said...

ive gotten in loads of trouble with my bloggs (i have three! mind you)and the other pages i frequent (sayhey included). some things were inappropiate to post, ill admit, but they were my own thoughts, and no matter who reads them, i have a right to write them. the space is mine after all.

and im sure your online persona is no where near as bad as mine. i re read what i write and i come off as an ignorant valley girl. oh thats right, i know it!

uhhhh........ just stay true to yourself? or something equally corney.

8:57 PM  
Blogger bomitoni said...

is this because i told u i didnt like your see through profile on myspace? lol....

good luck in your revamp!

10:41 PM  
Blogger YoNoTePidoLaLuna said...

I can't stand Myspace. its too "busy". I prefer my blog where I can upload what I want and lay it out and not have tons of advertisements, movie clips, friend GIF's and every other meaningless thing floating about.

9:10 AM  
Blogger Chicago_Sexbox said...

yet you whore yourself on there with a million and one pictures?

2:56 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

love ludacris runaway

1:36 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

all i have to say is that you can't get by with it ir even you can't do wrong in life ...GOD is watching you

8:22 PM  

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