I Didn't Know My Own Stength

I am LOVING Miss Whitney "Crack is Wack" Houston's comeback album! "Million Dollar Bill" makes me want to put on my favorite pimp suit and go boogie at the disco.

But I must say.....I am identifying the most with Whitney's sappy ballad that she performed live on Oprah a few weeks ago. "And I crashed down and tumbled but I did not crumble" I identify not because of a past abusive relationship or a crack addiction, but I really do underestimate my strength sometimes.

Preach it girlfriend!



Anyhoo, this past month has been a rollercoaster of emotions, now as I sit in my apartment surround by my partially packed belongings I must say I am somewhat at ease.....and relieved that I didn't totally lose my mind. I took 2 out of the 3 board exams I must complete in order to get licensed (and retain that lovely job offer I have in Florida) this past week. I have never felt so much pressure to succeed in my life. I won't know my results for awhile still and I have yet to receive an authorization to take the final board exam but I am going to think positively that I did well.

I am going to be living with Fernichael for the next month or so and I must say that even if I did crumble, I have some amazing friends that would figure out how to glue me back together.

End of the Rainbow

This month I have seen two rainbows. I can't help but wonder if this is a sign that my journey to the end of the rainbow is coming soon. I returned this past Monday from Cancun and I have been thrown back into the middle of the storm. It's funny how I have experience both the ups and downs of this economy bullshit. Back in February I was a happy go lucky student who didn't have to worry about what was going on with the economy. Nine months later I found myself in the very uncomfortable situation of looking for a job in this shit storm.

However, I shall not complain because after all of my worrying I DID have 4 job offers. There seemed to be major drawbacks to all of them but I gave it much thought and determined which one would be the best choice. The economy already threw its wrench into my plans but that didn't mean I couldn't make something work out of all of this. So, without further ado, I have formally accepted a job offer in West Palm Beach, Florida!



Although I will be 60 miles north or my orignal planned destination (Miami) this job offer is probably even better than I could have hoped for. So I am excited. The only frustrating part is that I cannot start working until I get my license in Florida......which is an annoyingly LONG process. Ugh. So in the meantime I will be crashing with friends here in Chicago until I am ready to move because I can't stay in my apartment anymore. It's going to be a stressful next few months but I can't turn back now!

Now let's just pray I pass all of my licensure exams......because otherwise I am fucked!

Finally

I am currently in Cancun (Mexico) about to attend a friend´s wedding. This is the first wedding i have ever attended in my life! I am excited. I am also excited because I FINALLY have found a job. I was made two offers this weekend and on Monday I shall call the one employer and accept the position.

More details to come!

Everything looks better from behind a smile.

I was a little grumpy today but the most unexpected person managed to turn my frown upside down. He probably won't read this but I am glad to have bumped into him today at just the right moment when I really needed some cheering up :)

he's also sexy as fuck so I guess that helps too. lol

I have been quite these past few days because I have simply been overwhelmed by life. No need to rehash everything that has been going on. Belive it or not I STILL do not know where I will be working or living come October 1st. Last week I flew down to Flroida when a very last minute interview was offered to me. That went extremely well and it appears that the job will be offered to me however there are some technicalities that may prevent me from being able to accept the position. It seems like even when something good does happen, there are a million and one other things to complicate the situation. I had another interview yesterday that also went well. This was for a job in Wisconsin. Obviously this isn't an ideal location but at this point in time I am no longer going to be fussy. In fact, I have offcially had 4 interviews and one job offer (which I decided to turn down last Friday for various reasons). This is all in the middle of the worst recession since the Great Depression so to be quite honest, I am not going to complain about anything that may come my way. I am so fortunate to have job interviews and offers. I am just stressed by the uncertainty of the next few weeks since I am running out of time to plan things accordingly. I am also scheduled to take my board exams and it has been hard to study with so much going on.

In a few hours I am getting on a plane to Cancun to attend a friend's wedding. I actually was starting to regret having made this trip because the timing is simply horrific but I realize now it might be a good thing. Getting away from the distractions of Chicago just might allow to take the time I need to study so I pass my board exams later this month. While it may not seem like fun to bring books on a vacation, I am sure I will enjoy studying on the beach. Hey, at least I will still get a fierce tan!

So my next post BETTER be my big announcement...........let's hope at least......

A decision with no answer.

This week has been crazy. I just came back from a VERY unexpected last minute trip to southern Florida. A decision has been made although there still is no answer as to where I will be working and living in less than 3 weeks. Wow, never have I lived so last-minute like this!

Graduation Weekend

I'm a little annoyed with my PLF for having stood me up this weekend but either way I am happy to have graduated with her on Friday. I STILL don't know if this is my last Labor Day weekend in Chicago so I partied very hard to celebrate my graduation and whatever is about to come. Needless to say this upcoming week is going to be VERY interesting. There have been some last minute developments and with the holiday today I only have 4 very short days to get shit figured out because I am running out of time.

My friend Michelle spent the weekend with me so that was a nice treat. We hadn't had time to hang out like this since I started pharmacy school. It was fun just hanging out, watching movies and drinking. Wow, I really had missed alcohol!

So I am taking the rest of the week one day at a time, yet making sure I will be ready for anything that may come my way. I'm not quite as stressed as I was before trying to plan everything weeks in advance. It's nice not having an ulcer everyday! lol

I must say, it is quite ironic how so many people are coming out of the woodwork to suddenly express their desire to see me remain in Chicago. I am talking about people who I haven't talked to in quite some time. Hmmmm.....very interesting. What's even more interesting is my decision to stay or leave is going to depend on where I find a job and not necessarily where I want to go.

We will see.

Dr. Sexbox.....gonna make it!

The day is finally here! My graduation! Despite all the ups and downs this year I must say I am very happy to be here. I rememeber many people were rather doubtful and unsupportive when I started this journey a few years ago. Either they didn't understand, didn't care or were just fucking assholes that needed to be removed from my life so it didn't matter. Even worse was the bitchy student advisor at UIC who told me I was "never going to make it and was making a big mistake".

Fucking cunt.

Anyhoo, the day is here. I am a PharmD (Dr. Sexbox if you will). As far as my job situation goes, there have been some developments but there will not be any decisions made until one week from today. Regardless of my decsion, the next 9 months before I begin my residency (post graduate training) next summer will be interesting to say the least. However, today I am just happy and relieved that I finally made it! So in honor of "making it" I am posting the freestyle classic by the Queen of Unibrows, Sa-Fire